Day 37

Confession time!

Well you all know that a week or so ago I had some cooked vegan soup and it caused my liver to hurt. I don't know what I was thinking but I did it again. I went with a friend shopping and forgot my lunch. So I decided to have a bean burrito at Taco Bell with some nachos and cheese. I was really hungry and I thought it wouldn't matter. My body responded so badly I couldn't believe it. Within 5 minutes of the first bite I got a small headache. 10 minutes later (after I finished) My head hurt so bad I took some Iobophrofin. Later on the train I felt all my old aches and pains I haven't had in 3 weeks. I was so sick, my Vertigo kicked in, body aches, liver pain, skin hurt, spleen throbbed, heart hurt, my nerves tingled, and I couldn't breathe well. When I got home 2 hours later the scariest thing happened. My large 4-5 inch tumor in my left breast started to burn. Then the little pea size ones all lit up. Then I noticed about 6 pea size tumors in my right breast went on fire and the fire pain started to increase more and more until it was almost unbearable. I didn't know that I had tumors in my right side, but I know what it feels like and I am for sure I do now. My breasts still hurt, when I started the diet the pain went away in about 3 weeks. Will they take that long again to stop hurting?

Why did my body have such a reaction to cooked, processed foods? (please respond if you have a answer!) I also had some cooked potatoes another day but only had a headache after. Now I am sure that I have to do a 100% raw diet. I don't think my body will let me do anything else. But I was hoping to be able to do some cooked foods every once in a while, when I needed to, I am bummed. But at least I now know how my body will respond.

I learned several lessons through this: These verses spoke to me after this happened and I wanted to share them with you and how they affected me.

Exodus 34:6 says: And the Lord passed before him and proclaimed. "The Lord, the Lord God, merciful and gracious, longsuffering, and abounding in goodness and truth, keeping mercy for thousands, forgiving iniquity and transgression and sin, by no means clearing the guilty.


Exodus 23: 20-30 ( I will just write the parts that spoke to me in this passage -K-)

Behold, I send an Angel before you to keep you in the way and to bring you into the place which I have prepared. Beware of Him and obey His voice; do not provoke him, for He will not pardon your transgressions; for my name is in Him. But if you indeed obey His voice and do all that I speak:
(skip to verse 23)
For My Angel will go before you and bring you in...

Verse 25) So you shall serve the Lord your God, and He will bless your bread and your water. And I will take sickness away form the mist of you.

Verse 29: I will not drive them out from before you in one year, lest the land become desolate and the beasts of the field become too numerous for you, (30) Little by little I will drive them out from before you, until you have increased, and you inherit the land.

For me this means to me that the beasts are my illnesses, and the land is my physical body will be healed slowly and steadily until I am fully healed.


This passage in Exodus the Lord spoke to me several times lately... You can read the whole passage, but these highlights are what touched my heart about my current circumstances.

Galatians 5: 22-25 " But the fruit of the Spirit is Love, joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control. Against such there is no law. And those who are Christ's have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. If we live in the Spirit, let us also walk in the Spirit.

What am I doing the Lord gave me specific instructions to heed His voice and I will be healed. I once again have been trying to do this on my own strength. He is the one who gives me strength and I have learned this lesson so many times. I have to practice self-control in this area. God is the only one who heals and I understand that, but he uses so many things in our lives to teach us lessons, grows our faith, and makes us more like Him. I want to be healed, but I want to be more like Jesus most of all, to know Him more. I think he put me on this path of raw foods for several reason; one of the most important ones for me is self-control. When someone has practiced self-control in one area of their life, It plays out in so many other areas too!

I have to remember why I am doing this, I am doing this for Jesus first and He is the one I want to honor and glorify! I know He forgives me and I know I will make mistakes so, I forgive myself. I want to live a long life, be there for my family, raise my kids and serve the Lord!

Until tomorrow

Amberlea