Day 38

I wanted to share with you a email that my sweet friend Jayne sent me in response to my question about why I felt so bad after I cheated. This is a great response and very encouraging to me I hope it is helpful to you also.. All is ok today, but I feel bogged down from the last few days. Other than that as Jayne said I am back on the raw horse..

Until tomorrow

Amberlea


Hi Amberlea...I Wanted to let you know I'm holding you in my thoughts and prayers. Also wanted to encourage you to "get back on the horse" (after reading your last blog entry). Because of all your physical issues and most are so serious....you really don't have the liberty to play around w/ the food you choose to eat....it's way too soon. I know you know that now. Really, until you are safely free of all your physical aliments (particularly the tumors and liver issues)...you MUST stick with the program.

Can you eat cooked? I would say give it 6 more months of all raw...than the only cooked should be your cooked...not restaurant cooked. You don't know what other ingredients are in the restaurant's food to make it "tasty" or to preserve the color or prolong it's cooked life. All kinds of chemicals/preservatives/colorings etc. Especially fast food... may tasted good...but your body is your best barometer.

Even I (without any of your health issues) can have problems eating restaurant food. My body tells me the next day...my eyes...my tummy. Every now and than I succumb to eating some dish from the co-op deli (scrutinizing the posted ingredients looking for problematic foods...like canola oil)....and even still...I pay for it the next day.

When someone starts eating more healthfully (whether it's raw or some other approach) and see big improvements in how they feel...they frequently take liberties prematurely. This is human nature. Food can be a big addiction...that's why any addiction leads to huge problems. It is constantly in the background beckoning our taste buds. Also there's a huge addictive emotional component to our past food cravings.

When you do really really need to eat something cooked....only you should prepare it so you know exactly what it consists of. Than (at least until you're better)...very simple cooking. Like a baked potato...or lightly steamed veggies. Watch your starches as they become sugar in your body...and until your cancer is gone you have to be oh so careful about this.

I hoped I've answered your question in your last blog entry...as why you reacted as you did. You took in food that was poison to your system. It looked innocent...it was not. All restaurant food has hidden ingredients that you cannot account for...not even to address that it was not organic.

I hope you've recovered from that outing...and are more resolved than ever to stay true to what you know is working for you. Don't be discouraged....you are getting stronger!

Love, Jayne